Never have I saw so many tears in New Yorkers eyes
Never felt such a heaviness of sadness on the train
Made eye contact with an African American woman and we smiled then saw each other’s tears swell up.
My heart hurts
My stomach aches
Feels like there was a death in our country and we need to have a funeral service.
This affects everyone. EVERYONE.
We are a diverse country filled with men, women, trans men and trans women, black, white, Asian, Hispanic, disabled, abled, Jewish, Muslim, gay, straight. We are all affected by this and all need to feel safe.
It’s silly that we are not liking each other based on their color, their gender, their sexual orientation, their religion, and their beliefs. Let’s move on from this and focus on what is important.
Children are smarter than this. It is my duty as a teacher and as a therapist to teach young kids how to be kind to one another, how to accept one another for who they are, and how to love themselves.
What is this four lettered word that comes out of our mouth 1000 times a day? What is this four lettered word that drives us crazy yet drives our entire beings to live our lives?
I experienced love on many levels this past weekend which brought some clarity for me. Defining love is an ongoing process for me and is amazing at how universal yet complex this small word can be, and how many meanings it has for all of us! At the end of the day though, we all use this word for one thing: to show others that we care.
Love is worrying about your person so much that your insides hurt
Love is sharing food with your person even if it means cooking their favorite food all day or picking up take out at midnight
Love is making sacrifices
Love is self-less
Love is communicating
Love is honesty
Love is protecting your child from the world
Love is breaking up Cheerios into bits and pieces while your driving and feeding them to your baby
Love is waiting
Love is patient
Love is that pain in your chest when you have to say goodbye
Love is giving
Love is receiving
Love is challenging
Love is fearless and frightening
Love is kind
Love is giving up your needs and wants for the other person
Love is encouraging the other to do what they need to do even if it means them leaving you
Love is the unknown
Love is ever changing
Love is stability
Love is vulnerability
Love is painful, exhausting, and stressful
Love is love and love is all we need and is all we are
Blue skirts, white polo shirts, and knee highs.
Girls going together without a parent.
Parents holding their kids hands on the train
I remember that as a kid I was in a car on my way to school and didn’t have the hustle bustle that city kids experience.
Both great just different
Getting a bit sad that I won’t be living here next year which makes me enjoy every moment now.
Yes it’s hectic
Yes it’s overwhelming
But it’s alive.
I feel alive amongst other humans even as close to my body on the train
We’re together in this.
With many friends as teachers, I am a teacher. Even though I am not a teacher in a public school teaching reading, writing, or the arts, my teaching toddlers matters.
I’m teaching the most essential thing:
Love and comfort and play.
Separation from their parents.
Independence and community
And of course so much more
The more confident and comfortable a human being is the more they can learn and have the capacity in their brains to learn and grow.
My job is important.
I am grateful to be at buckle my shoe with such great coworkers.
I’m so glad I decided to stay at this job.
I love you Rachael and you are growing and changing and are perfect.
I like to think of myself as a very open-minded individual, free-spirit who tries many new and different experiences. Overall, this has suited me well most of my life and I love living life without regrets and by living in the moment. However, I have found that there is a place to say the word “No” even if we fear we’ll miss out on that experience or hurt those around us by not doing the thing they invited us to.
In graduate school, one of my professors shared an important and vital lesson I’ll never forget, which is by saying “NO” to others, we are saying YES to ourselves. Of course, if we say no all of the time and are always doing the thing we want and/or hibernating from the world and being too selfish, then it might be time to say the three letter word instead. As long as we think about the decision and for me, think and feel not just about the current moment but how I’ll feel if I say Yes and how I’ll feel if I say No. (Gut reaction).
As with most things, a balance is important and thoughtfulness instead of impulsivity (most of the time) is a better choice. Then there’s the whole being impeccable with our word and doing my best to stick to what I say especially if it involves others. Overall, I am grateful to be reminded that the word “No” can and should be in my vocabulary and it is an act of self-love which I believe, will ultimately positively affect those around us! Practice makes perfect! No! No! No!
Dancing with gravity
Gerbil energy and positive frequency
You can’t do this wrong
Don’t try, just allow it to be what it is
Allow you to be what you are
Dancing with gravity
Dancing with myself
Dancing the dance of life with others
Gratitude of the heart
Dance of the heart
How simple yet complex it is to fold your body over someone else
How hard to give and receive weight
Dance is a language we all speak and know so well yet is foreign to most of us
Maybe because it is so healing which can be difficult
It makes us vulnerable to seeing ourselves as we are.
People cram into a subway car
Arms almost touching
Feel eyes look at you in awe and when you look up at them, they go back down
Are we afraid of awkward unknown moments?
What is it that makes you you and me me?
Is it how I view myself that you see and receive or is it how I show myself to the outside world? Or no matter what I do and am, you will see what you want to see.
I have a tank top with an owl on it and he wears glasses and says, “it’s not how you see it’s how you look”
I am so grateful at where I am in my life right now and where I have come from. The past two weeks I got to spend with my family. Dad in Florida and mom and everyone there in Burbank. Even though I have experienced divorce, pain, loneliness, feelings of abandonment, I have also felt such gratitude, love, and acceptance. It is amazing, the journey of life. All are unknown and its what you make of it! Of course, there’s a lot we can control or change about ourselves or life, yet on the other hand, we do have power to make changes. It’s like an ongoing conversation with the universe, (God, mystery of life)etc. what we want and what we do with what comes to us.
I’m in a space of growth. I have explored my sexuality a lot! Still will continue to do so I’m sure, but I’m now in this place of knowing self-love and what I want and that I don’t have to compromise that for someone else’s needs or expectations. I wonder if young girls need to know this too.
There is so much I want to do in this life and I believe I can do all of it! I want to be known as someone who had different aspects of themselves, parts of their lives, and passions! Here I will now express it!
1. I want to continue to work with children
2. I want to educate and work with with moms through Dmt
3. I want to write a book
4. I want to play the guitar and ukulele
5. I want to learn more about all religions
6. I want to become a massage therapist
7. I want to get a phd in psychology
8. I want to cook more and bake
9. I want to dance more
10. I want to be ME more!
Thank you life, love, and everything and everyone! Thank you me! Love you Rachael Anne Singer and all my relations!
Gathering of the vibes An Unexpected joyful experience
Old friends and new friends
family bonds and struggles
Accept yourself before loving anyone else
I have been creating so many memories and having such beautiful conversations with all sorts of people. I feel so so so grateful to be alive, to have grown up the way I did with so much love, and to be where I am now!
Thank you life, universe, mother, father, brothers and sisters. We are all connected. We are all the same.
Thinking about the differences between two festivals that I attended, which are Unifier and Gathering of the vibes. Both were life changing and so beautiful in their own ways. Of course, we are the creators of our experiences and both affect and are affected by the people we are with. Looking deeply into the meaning of both festivals, I realized that unifier was more about my own self growth and transformation where as vibes was also but mainly about the people I was with and the conversations and the moments that were unforgettable. Thank you universe and all living things. I feel that we are all God cause we are all creators!
We are the painters and we are the canvas
We are the creators and we are the created
We are the healers and we are the healed
We are the hurt and we are the hurters
We are the feared and we are the fearful
We are the loved and we are the lovers
We are what we want to be
We are what we are
We are all human
As a single 26 year old human living in New York City, I have begun the process of dating. Although I’m not sure if I choose to fully believe that there is one person for everyone of us, also called a soul mate, I can’t help but look for “the one” everyday of my life. Whether it’s at a bar, on the subway, airplane, or train, I look for them. I say “them” because I don’t know anything about them and am open to both men and women. It depends on the individual, who they are, not on their gender, race, religion, sexual orientation, etc. anywho I digress!
As I was eating wings and sitting at this restaurant/bar called Brother Jimmys, I noticed that I was perusing the humans around me and wondered why is it that I have a type and why I find one person attractive vs. another. Of course I know that we are programmed to reproduce which affects the way we attract and are attracted to other humans. Yet, I believe it’s deeper than that. We have the ability to sense a connection with someone and also are intrigued by different energies. Perhaps we have multiple soul mates for different times in our lives or one soul mate that we are destined to be with.
Whatever it may be, I am realizing everyday that what it truly comes down to is loving and accepting myself fully before I can fully love another human being AND let them love me fully! The more me I am, the more I’ll find someone who sees me for all of me, the good, the bad, and the ugly! We are complex beings and it takes time for us to even know and accept ourselves before others can do so too.